Okay so I am uber pissed at Denise right now. That skank that called herself my best friend totally just tried to sabbotage my thing with Kyle. Kyle is the first guy since Roman that I have been remotely interested in at all. Okay let me start from the beginning I am just having a big freak out here that's all.
Denise
She apparently saw Kyle over the weekend. They had coffee and talked about the party. Apparently she apologized to him about the freak out and decided to blurt out all this shit about me. How Roman and I have a past together. That apparently she thinks we still date but don't want others to know about it. That she thinks I am just using Kyle to get Roman jealous or something along those lines. She also tried to make her move on him saying that she thought he was cute. How they should hang out again some time soon. She gave him her number and told him to call her anytime he wants.
Monday :Coffee Shop
Kyle was running a little late so I just ordered us two Caramel Macchiatto's and took up a little table in the corner. As I sat there waiting for him to come I get a text from Roman saying that he needed to meet up with me later. I also got a text from a strange number saying that I needed to watch who I was friends with. I texted them back asking who it was and they wouldn't say but that I needed to watch who I trusted. I was really creeped out because well who the fuck has my number that I don't know. Anyways at that time Kyle walked in and was a little stand offish. I asked him if everything was okay and that's when he laid the bomb out on me. Our conversation went like this
Me: Hey I got you a Caramel Macchiatto, hope you like it.
Kyle: Thanks, I love Caramel.
Me: Sweet!
Kyle: So how was the rest of your weekend?
Me: It was fun, went to New York. You?
Kyle: It was fun until yesterday it got a little ..... weird.
Me: Oh? What happened?
Kyle: I hung out with Denise. Gives me this look like he knows everything and is pissed off sort of ..
Me: Oh.. how was that?
Kyle: I found out some stuff, glad I know what's up.
Me: Is there something you need to tell me? What's wrong?
Kyle: Listen, I think your pretty cool and well gorgeous. I just don't like to be played with and Denise told me some things about you and that guy you were with on Friday.
Me: Oh.. like what things?
Kyle: That you two are sort of a thing and that you were just using me to get him jealous.
Me: Oh is that what she said? Hmm.. Funny. I am going to beat that bitch to the fucking ground. How the fuck dare she try to pull something like this on me.
Kyle: So what's the deal?
Me: The deal is kyle you are getting played with but not by me. Roman and I are just friends. Yes, we dated a few times in the past but it just doesn't work he and I. Denise told you those things to hurt me because she thinks I hurt her with that whole mess about Peter. I am sorry that you had to go through this and be involved in this situation.
Kyle: So you two are just friends? He smiles in relief
Me: Yes, just friends, if you don't believe me I can call Ro so you two can talk about it.
Kyle: No I believe you. I'm sorry I feel so silly.
Me: Don't feel silly or be sorry. You thought she was looking out for you and since she is or was my friend you thought she was telling you the truth about me. He gives me another smile and sips his coffee some more. We stay quiet for a little and something inside me tells me I should just tell him about my relationship with Ro is pretty close.
Me: I just want you to know that Ro is one of my best friends, has been since we were in diapers. We hang out a lot and some people still get the idea we are dating. I just don't want you to get freaked out by it or anything. Its just that Ro depends on me a lot, he has a really bad home life and I am the constant in his life.
Kyle: So what does that mean exactly?
Me: It means that sometimes Ro will call when we hang out or text me. It means that sometimes when you call I will be hanging out with Ro. Don't get so worried I am going to hang out with you and get texts from you. Just know that sometimes you'll have to share my time with him.
Kyle: like how much time?
Me: Getting territorial on me ?
Our conversation went on for hours talking about dislikes and likes. Ro texted me a few times but I didn't get them till later. I didn't want our first time talking to have any interruptions. Kyle and I are going to take it slow. See where things go and I am so happy he believed me. Denise isn't in school today so my bitching her out will have to wait for later. All I know is that our friendship is completely over. I am so tired of her taking out all her stupid problems with herself on me. Instead of me taking the bus home today Ro is going to pick me up. He said he has some news he has to talk to me about. At this point I am hoping for some good news because if its more bad news I might just freak out. Right now I am so glad Kyle and I are getting to know each other because I get happy just thinking about it. Even if we don't take this getting to know each other to a relationship stage and just remain friends I am happy with that. I mean don't get me wrong I love hanging out with Ro and I do love him on some level but it's time for me to hang out with a guy that is uncharted. Got to go we have some new sub in our computer class who likes to walk around seeing what we are up to.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Recap
Sorry guys I've been away doing some things with some friends of mine. There has been so much drama and so much that has happened since my last post. So let's pick up where I left off last time. Roman came over that night we talked about some things and then we fell asleep. See Roman has a really bad home life I think its part of the reason why I feel so close to him because we both have problems at home. Not only have we been friends since we were young ducklings but I just feel like in some weird way we could actually save each other. Anyways he came over talked about some home problems and since he didn't have a place to go for the night I told him to stay over. I mean no one ever comes down to my room in the basement and I mean it was already 4 in the morning by the time we stopped talking. My parents were already asleep and I figured my alarm would go off for school and I'd be a good daughter get ready instead of having mom have to call my cell like five times to wake me up. I didn't want to chance either of my parents coming all the way down three flights to wake me up with Roman asleep in my room.
Luckily I woke up on the first ring of my alarm. I woke Roman up to so he could sneak out my window before my parents woke up. Of course I went upstairs to check before he left my room at all. Lucky for me my parents decided to sleep in a little that morning so Roman got out and I didn't get in trouble.
Friday
Friday was the day of the party and Denise was being extremely up my arse the whole fooking day at school. I think she was trying to be on my good side so she wouldn't be uninvited to the party. That night I rushed out my parents house after dinner to Denise's house so we could go to the mall pick out some cute shirts to wear for the party. Of course we ran into Peter this guitar player from some lame-o band that Denise is obsessed with, I just thinks she wants to screw Peter. I mean the whole band sucks except for the drummer Jessy who is kind of cute. Anyways as soon as we ran into him it was like I didn't exist to Denise except Peter kept trying to include me in their conversation which Denise didn't look to happy about. I didn't really care for Peter his friend Kyle on the other hand was interesting. I mean we didn't really talk much it was one of those awkward moments where you know the guy isn't interested in the girl but the girl is trying so hard to get his attention. Yeah, it was like, a fooking train wreck. I broke the ice, introduced myself, he told me his name was Kyle, something I would of never guessed. He looked more like a Christian or Gerard. He had this brownish reddish hair and these really cool blue eyes that were almost gray. His lips were definitely plump nice for kissing and he had these little freckles beneath his eyes they weren't in your face freckles but faint like if you got close enough you'd just notice them. He had this lilt to his speaking like he was Scottish or Irish but it wasn't enough for me to pin point which. It was only on certain words which was really cute. Anyways what I did find out was that he was into BMX, Skate-boarding, Surfing and he was new in town. Some how he was related to Peter but I saw no relation. I ended up inviting him out to the party we were going to and Denise's face looked shocked. Which then I remembered that some other guy who Denise liked was going to the party and she totally didn't want Peter and this other kid to be at the same party. It would be "too conflicting" she said.
Anyways we got our outfits, left the mall, changed at her house and Roman picked us up as usual. I sat in the front with Roman which Denise hates because we end up having conversations she can't keep up with, she always tries to get me to sit in the back with her or have her sit up front but Roman always tells me to sit up front with him. He doesn't really like Denise because of how catty she can be at times with me. He called her a "mean girl" after we watched mean girls. That was the night Roman came over after a huge fight with his dad and Denise yelled at me for something dumb. We were both pretty down so he came over to watch movies and surprisingly he picked Mean Girls. Anyways we went to the party and of course Meghan was there to just make matters worse. See Meghan is friends with Jay who is one of Romans friends so we always run the risk of Meghan showing up at some parties we go to. I am fine with it because I don't really have a problem with the girl. Except that she hates me for some unknown reason but I don't push the issue. Now Denise on the other hand always does, she ends up talking about her the whole night and trying to steal whatever guy Meghan is talking to from her. It's so petty I just come to hang out and have a good time.
Seeing that Meghan was there and knowing Denise was already on edge because Peter and I forget the other kids name she liked was going to be at the same party I totally didn't want to stick by her side for the night. So as soon as I got in Ro and I went to the keg Denise followed we got our drinks and I worked the party. I started talking to all the people I knew and Denise kept talking about Meghan. I just blocked her out most of the time you know going uhuh or stupid bitch when I felt like she needed to think I was paying attention. At some point she left my hip and went to go dance with some dude. I was thankful some one took her from me even for a short while. I then found Ro upstairs talking to Jay and a few other friends. We ended up bonging some beers and taking some shots. I think around midnight Kyle and Peter showed up with Jessy. I talked to them for a little but Ro came to get so we could have a cig outside. Well I don't really smoke just take a couple drags from Ro's cig nothing really major. Of course we're outside talking freezing our arses off and Denise comes out freaking out. Talking about some dude grabbed her boob and how her make up looks messed up. How she needs me to go upstairs to help her fix herself for Peter. So I leave Ro and go with her. I end up helping her fix herself don't know how because at that point I'm feeling pretty good. We go down stairs find Peter and the gang. I ask Kyle if he wants a beer and we go off to find the keg. Kyle shows me his tattoo which is on his left arm. It's his family crest or something. Apparently he is from Ireland but they moved here when he was 9 years old because of some drama. We ended up talking the rest of the night until Ro texted me about leaving. Kyle and I ended up exchanging numbers which was pretty cool.
I finally join the party with Kyle behind me to find Denise arguing with Meghan. Some serious drama broke out then. I go over to get her and she flips out on me. Something about where was I when she needed me. How crappy of a friend of I am. I asked her what happened and she told me "Meghan was just being a bitch again trying to steal my men." I just roll my eyes. See Denise thinks that once she gets with someone that they are forever dubbed her men. No one can touch them not even the fooking queen herself for anything. So apparently Denise went to the bathroom and when she came back down Peter was flirting with Meghan. In Denise's eyes it was Meghan flirting with Peter. Like I said Train Wreck.
I told her Ro was outside ready to leave and she freaked out saying she wasn't leaving because that would give Meghan the upper hand. I told her we had to go because Ro was our ride and I was not going to make him stay for her petty little game with Meghan. She freaked out on me called me a bitch and that's when all hell broke out. Ro saw her yelling at me and came over to tell her to calm down. Kyle came out to see what was going on. I went into the party got Peter and told him to come outside. He came out and I embarrassed the shit out Denise. I told Peter everything that was said to me from Denise about him and he came out to tell her that he went up to Meghan. That he actually likes Meghan and has for some time. How he just wanted to be friends with Denise and not hurt her feelings. Denise looked crushed and I hated seeing that on her face but hell there was no way I was getting blamed for this one. Plus Ro and I wanted to leave she was causing a scene. So we finally got her in the car she stayed quiet the whole time. Ro dropped us off and once he drove off she freaked out on me again. Saying that I planned to make her look like a fool in front of everyone and that I was no longer her best friend. I told her that she needed to know that Peter didn't like her and she wouldn't believe me so I had to get Peter to tell her. She told me to get my shit and that she didn't want to talk to me for a little. She is always being so melodramatic so I got my shit and called Ro to come get me.
That night we went to New York ourselves.
Saturday
It was the best day of my life so far. We drove all night to get to New York city and then we crashed a college party. Apparently Ro's friend goes to school around there and they were having keg races or something like that. I don't know what it was called but we ate breakfast first and then fixed ourselves up. We got to the party early and started to drink with Ro's friend Jacob. I was introduced to my first bong and learned how to smoke hookah. I was completely a waste by the time 2 PM rolled around. Ro was tired of the scene so we left there with Jacob and went sight seeing. I was completely wasted and surprised that no cops arrested us. I mean we weren't stumbling or anything but we were being obnoxious. We took pictures in some clothing stores. It was quit funny seeing Ro and Jacob in chick clothes. I dressed like a dude. Jacob bought me this cute shirt from this expensive store I never heard of but he said "You looked really good in it so I figured you had to have it" I didn't know what to say but thank you of course. Ro knows the coolest people. We ended up going to a diner to eat some food around 7PM to which I was coming out of high and drunken state. I hadn't slept and been running on coffee, alcohol and mentos for over 24 hours. I was crashing bad so we decided to go back to Jacobs because the party would have been over and moved on to another house. We got back and it was seriously trashed. We cleaned up a little bit and I downed a couple of shots to keep my energy up.
Ro ended up falling asleep on the couch and I ended up watching cartoons with Jacob. Apparently he is studying to be a lawyer and he's 22 years old. When I told him my age he seemed surprised apparently I look much older and don't act my age. Jacob is really smart and handsome. He is really tall, has dark hair and these hazel brown eyes. I would say he has some Roman background because he definitely has a Roman's nose. His lips are like some what plump but not like Kyles, still kissable though. Jacob ended up taking me to a store to get some Mentos I ran out and we ended up stopping by some cute little boutique. He bought me a cute skirt to go with the shirt I was wearing he got me earlier and matching heels. He then asked me to do him a favor which I couldn't refuse because the guy just bought me the cutest outfit. We ended up going to dinner with his parents and he needed to take a date. We went to this really nice restaurant and his parents are really awesome. Apparently they approved of me you know me going to school to be a doctor and all. We came up with this elaborate lie and Jacob said I did really well. We got back laughing and Ro looked pissed. We left New York around 10 PM and Ro was really quiet for a long time. I finally broke the ice and he just let me have it. Saying that Jacob was an asshole and I should of never left the apartment with him. That I shouldn't of accepted the outfit because now I will owe Jacob or something. I mean it's not like I will ever run into Jacob again unless I am with Ro so it's no big deal. We ended up talking everything out and things are fine now. I slept on the way home and woke up once we got back to Ro's parents house. I showered there and we slept until the next morning. I made it home in enough time to make it for my family thing.
Sunday
Sunday was lame. I was seriously hurting from all the partying but the good news is Kyle texted me. Said he wanted to hang out and get some coffee after school on Monday. Well which is today. He goes to a school around my neighborhood so he is going to walk over to the local coffee shop and meet up with me. Denise texted me saying she was mad at me for not taking her to New York.
Today
I haven't talked to Denise yet today. I don't really plan on it either because I did nothing wrong. She is always doing some like this every time we go out some where and she doesn't get what she wants. I am super excited about meeting up with Kyle and still super hung over. That's what I get for partying so hard. Oh well I shall update about my little coffee date with Kyle. Oh I almost forgot apparently Jacob programmed his number into my phone. He keeps texting me saying he wants to come visit me and Ro soon. I mean I have no problem with Jacob but it was kind of scary that Ro said I shouldn't of trusted Jacob so easily. He is right I had no clue who Jacob was and I was in a city that I didn't know anyone but Ro. Something could of easily happened to me especially since I was still drunk. I guess I just trusted in Ro's judgment and figured it was okay to hang out with him while Ro slept. Anyways the bell is ringing I have to go peeps.
Luckily I woke up on the first ring of my alarm. I woke Roman up to so he could sneak out my window before my parents woke up. Of course I went upstairs to check before he left my room at all. Lucky for me my parents decided to sleep in a little that morning so Roman got out and I didn't get in trouble.
Friday
Friday was the day of the party and Denise was being extremely up my arse the whole fooking day at school. I think she was trying to be on my good side so she wouldn't be uninvited to the party. That night I rushed out my parents house after dinner to Denise's house so we could go to the mall pick out some cute shirts to wear for the party. Of course we ran into Peter this guitar player from some lame-o band that Denise is obsessed with, I just thinks she wants to screw Peter. I mean the whole band sucks except for the drummer Jessy who is kind of cute. Anyways as soon as we ran into him it was like I didn't exist to Denise except Peter kept trying to include me in their conversation which Denise didn't look to happy about. I didn't really care for Peter his friend Kyle on the other hand was interesting. I mean we didn't really talk much it was one of those awkward moments where you know the guy isn't interested in the girl but the girl is trying so hard to get his attention. Yeah, it was like, a fooking train wreck. I broke the ice, introduced myself, he told me his name was Kyle, something I would of never guessed. He looked more like a Christian or Gerard. He had this brownish reddish hair and these really cool blue eyes that were almost gray. His lips were definitely plump nice for kissing and he had these little freckles beneath his eyes they weren't in your face freckles but faint like if you got close enough you'd just notice them. He had this lilt to his speaking like he was Scottish or Irish but it wasn't enough for me to pin point which. It was only on certain words which was really cute. Anyways what I did find out was that he was into BMX, Skate-boarding, Surfing and he was new in town. Some how he was related to Peter but I saw no relation. I ended up inviting him out to the party we were going to and Denise's face looked shocked. Which then I remembered that some other guy who Denise liked was going to the party and she totally didn't want Peter and this other kid to be at the same party. It would be "too conflicting" she said.
Anyways we got our outfits, left the mall, changed at her house and Roman picked us up as usual. I sat in the front with Roman which Denise hates because we end up having conversations she can't keep up with, she always tries to get me to sit in the back with her or have her sit up front but Roman always tells me to sit up front with him. He doesn't really like Denise because of how catty she can be at times with me. He called her a "mean girl" after we watched mean girls. That was the night Roman came over after a huge fight with his dad and Denise yelled at me for something dumb. We were both pretty down so he came over to watch movies and surprisingly he picked Mean Girls. Anyways we went to the party and of course Meghan was there to just make matters worse. See Meghan is friends with Jay who is one of Romans friends so we always run the risk of Meghan showing up at some parties we go to. I am fine with it because I don't really have a problem with the girl. Except that she hates me for some unknown reason but I don't push the issue. Now Denise on the other hand always does, she ends up talking about her the whole night and trying to steal whatever guy Meghan is talking to from her. It's so petty I just come to hang out and have a good time.
Seeing that Meghan was there and knowing Denise was already on edge because Peter and I forget the other kids name she liked was going to be at the same party I totally didn't want to stick by her side for the night. So as soon as I got in Ro and I went to the keg Denise followed we got our drinks and I worked the party. I started talking to all the people I knew and Denise kept talking about Meghan. I just blocked her out most of the time you know going uhuh or stupid bitch when I felt like she needed to think I was paying attention. At some point she left my hip and went to go dance with some dude. I was thankful some one took her from me even for a short while. I then found Ro upstairs talking to Jay and a few other friends. We ended up bonging some beers and taking some shots. I think around midnight Kyle and Peter showed up with Jessy. I talked to them for a little but Ro came to get so we could have a cig outside. Well I don't really smoke just take a couple drags from Ro's cig nothing really major. Of course we're outside talking freezing our arses off and Denise comes out freaking out. Talking about some dude grabbed her boob and how her make up looks messed up. How she needs me to go upstairs to help her fix herself for Peter. So I leave Ro and go with her. I end up helping her fix herself don't know how because at that point I'm feeling pretty good. We go down stairs find Peter and the gang. I ask Kyle if he wants a beer and we go off to find the keg. Kyle shows me his tattoo which is on his left arm. It's his family crest or something. Apparently he is from Ireland but they moved here when he was 9 years old because of some drama. We ended up talking the rest of the night until Ro texted me about leaving. Kyle and I ended up exchanging numbers which was pretty cool.
I finally join the party with Kyle behind me to find Denise arguing with Meghan. Some serious drama broke out then. I go over to get her and she flips out on me. Something about where was I when she needed me. How crappy of a friend of I am. I asked her what happened and she told me "Meghan was just being a bitch again trying to steal my men." I just roll my eyes. See Denise thinks that once she gets with someone that they are forever dubbed her men. No one can touch them not even the fooking queen herself for anything. So apparently Denise went to the bathroom and when she came back down Peter was flirting with Meghan. In Denise's eyes it was Meghan flirting with Peter. Like I said Train Wreck.
I told her Ro was outside ready to leave and she freaked out saying she wasn't leaving because that would give Meghan the upper hand. I told her we had to go because Ro was our ride and I was not going to make him stay for her petty little game with Meghan. She freaked out on me called me a bitch and that's when all hell broke out. Ro saw her yelling at me and came over to tell her to calm down. Kyle came out to see what was going on. I went into the party got Peter and told him to come outside. He came out and I embarrassed the shit out Denise. I told Peter everything that was said to me from Denise about him and he came out to tell her that he went up to Meghan. That he actually likes Meghan and has for some time. How he just wanted to be friends with Denise and not hurt her feelings. Denise looked crushed and I hated seeing that on her face but hell there was no way I was getting blamed for this one. Plus Ro and I wanted to leave she was causing a scene. So we finally got her in the car she stayed quiet the whole time. Ro dropped us off and once he drove off she freaked out on me again. Saying that I planned to make her look like a fool in front of everyone and that I was no longer her best friend. I told her that she needed to know that Peter didn't like her and she wouldn't believe me so I had to get Peter to tell her. She told me to get my shit and that she didn't want to talk to me for a little. She is always being so melodramatic so I got my shit and called Ro to come get me.
That night we went to New York ourselves.
Saturday
It was the best day of my life so far. We drove all night to get to New York city and then we crashed a college party. Apparently Ro's friend goes to school around there and they were having keg races or something like that. I don't know what it was called but we ate breakfast first and then fixed ourselves up. We got to the party early and started to drink with Ro's friend Jacob. I was introduced to my first bong and learned how to smoke hookah. I was completely a waste by the time 2 PM rolled around. Ro was tired of the scene so we left there with Jacob and went sight seeing. I was completely wasted and surprised that no cops arrested us. I mean we weren't stumbling or anything but we were being obnoxious. We took pictures in some clothing stores. It was quit funny seeing Ro and Jacob in chick clothes. I dressed like a dude. Jacob bought me this cute shirt from this expensive store I never heard of but he said "You looked really good in it so I figured you had to have it" I didn't know what to say but thank you of course. Ro knows the coolest people. We ended up going to a diner to eat some food around 7PM to which I was coming out of high and drunken state. I hadn't slept and been running on coffee, alcohol and mentos for over 24 hours. I was crashing bad so we decided to go back to Jacobs because the party would have been over and moved on to another house. We got back and it was seriously trashed. We cleaned up a little bit and I downed a couple of shots to keep my energy up.
Ro ended up falling asleep on the couch and I ended up watching cartoons with Jacob. Apparently he is studying to be a lawyer and he's 22 years old. When I told him my age he seemed surprised apparently I look much older and don't act my age. Jacob is really smart and handsome. He is really tall, has dark hair and these hazel brown eyes. I would say he has some Roman background because he definitely has a Roman's nose. His lips are like some what plump but not like Kyles, still kissable though. Jacob ended up taking me to a store to get some Mentos I ran out and we ended up stopping by some cute little boutique. He bought me a cute skirt to go with the shirt I was wearing he got me earlier and matching heels. He then asked me to do him a favor which I couldn't refuse because the guy just bought me the cutest outfit. We ended up going to dinner with his parents and he needed to take a date. We went to this really nice restaurant and his parents are really awesome. Apparently they approved of me you know me going to school to be a doctor and all. We came up with this elaborate lie and Jacob said I did really well. We got back laughing and Ro looked pissed. We left New York around 10 PM and Ro was really quiet for a long time. I finally broke the ice and he just let me have it. Saying that Jacob was an asshole and I should of never left the apartment with him. That I shouldn't of accepted the outfit because now I will owe Jacob or something. I mean it's not like I will ever run into Jacob again unless I am with Ro so it's no big deal. We ended up talking everything out and things are fine now. I slept on the way home and woke up once we got back to Ro's parents house. I showered there and we slept until the next morning. I made it home in enough time to make it for my family thing.
Sunday
Sunday was lame. I was seriously hurting from all the partying but the good news is Kyle texted me. Said he wanted to hang out and get some coffee after school on Monday. Well which is today. He goes to a school around my neighborhood so he is going to walk over to the local coffee shop and meet up with me. Denise texted me saying she was mad at me for not taking her to New York.
Today
I haven't talked to Denise yet today. I don't really plan on it either because I did nothing wrong. She is always doing some like this every time we go out some where and she doesn't get what she wants. I am super excited about meeting up with Kyle and still super hung over. That's what I get for partying so hard. Oh well I shall update about my little coffee date with Kyle. Oh I almost forgot apparently Jacob programmed his number into my phone. He keeps texting me saying he wants to come visit me and Ro soon. I mean I have no problem with Jacob but it was kind of scary that Ro said I shouldn't of trusted Jacob so easily. He is right I had no clue who Jacob was and I was in a city that I didn't know anyone but Ro. Something could of easily happened to me especially since I was still drunk. I guess I just trusted in Ro's judgment and figured it was okay to hang out with him while Ro slept. Anyways the bell is ringing I have to go peeps.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Success
All around today was successful. I did wonderful on my speech and since Mr. Grey knew I would worry myself sick over it he told me my grade later on in the day. I got a perfect score which means I get an extra fifteen points on our next test :) Not that I really need it anyways we are reading Hamlet and let me tell you I am in love with Shakespeare! Granite I am reading the spark notes version where it has the real play on the left side and the translation on the right I still think the usage of words is beautiful. I came home did some extra reading because I was that interested in the story and then I had some dinner with my family.
Which brings me to that topic, Which I assure you I will be writing a lot about in the future. I love my family don't get me wrong it's just some of the things they do can be really annoying. Take for instance tonight at the dinner table my cousin was chewing like a cow. Oh yeah my cousin lives right down the street from us and well her parents are always working so she eats dinner with us a lot. Anyways tonight we had some steak with russet potatoes and some broccoli. All of it was delicious but I was sort of getting sick listening to her chew with her mouth open. The smacking around of her lips and then the rolling around the meat with her tongue it all sounds slimy and well gross. I told her to stop but there is nothing more my cousin loves than annoying me. Plus my mom always sticks up for her because she feels bad about her family situation. Which don't get me wrong is messed up but that does give you the right to chew like a cow at the dinner table. Eventually I couldn't take it anymore and just took my plate to my room.
I sleep in the basement I like it down here it's quiet and people never know when I am home or not. It's kind of mysterious, plus I have my own bathroom and it's super private. People usually forget I am even down here unless I am playing my music really loud which happens a lot. Anyways I came down to my room turned on my computer and continued to eat while I waited for my computer to start up. That's when I got the text from Roman about a party going on down town with some friends of ours this weekend. My parents don't really know that I hang out with Roman anymore, they think since we moved that he and I lost touch. Or at least that is what they are hoping, but we haven't lost touch. He actually comes up here a lot to hang out with me when my whole family goes to bed. I sneak him in through our back window and we just hangout for hours in my room. Right now we are back in the friends stage even though we both know we will end up going back out soon again. It's always the same story with him we pretend to be friends for a little bit then one hot make out session and we are back to dating. Then he goes and breaks my heart by doing something stupid. Then we try the friends thing again but we all know how that goes. At this point I really don't mind it because we'll I'm young and I mean this won't be forever. I like Roman a lot though we have grown up together and I have liked him ever since first grade. We just get along really well and to be honest I may be in a little bit of love with him. Alright I have to go Roman's calling me to give me the details about this party or he's outside my window waiting for me to let him in. Either way I have to go until next time :)
Nervous
Today I woke up with a bad taste in my mouth, probably from all the candy I ate before bed. Yes, I brushed my teeth before going to sleep after all the candy but hey I mean morning breath still happens. Anyways for some reason I woke up extra early for school today. Usually it's mom yelling at me to wake up in the morning, but today I woke her up for work. I guess I'm just nervous about my English class later today. See our English teacher made us memorize a Soliloquy for class today the girls had to remember one and the boys had to remember the other. I would say it's a little risque for Catholic School but then again it's high school and I'm sure the teachers know that we aren't all little angels. All I know is I am completely uncomfortable getting up in front of my Hot English teacher and class mates, to say anything really. I mean it's really embarrassing to have to say things like "Take my breasts for gall" or "Woe is me" Don't get me wrong I love reading these plays but I am no actress. Plus I mean we are in high school and I know people are going to snicker when they hear the select few who decided they wanted extra credit for the class get up there and say their speech. Plus Meghan is in my class, Oh right Meghan is some girl in my year who hates me for some unknown reason to me. One day I heard a rumor that she thought I was annoying but to be honest I never spoke to that girl a day in my life. Then a few days later I heard my best mate Denise ramble on and on how Meghan was trying to be like her, which I didn't see but just nodded my head like I did. I have no clue how this feud of rumors started between Meghan and Denise but I do know that it is really annoying after a while.
Back to this whole speech thing, I am double nervous because I feel like Mr. Grey is going to pick me to go first for the girls. Which is going to be highly difficult since you know I get all sweaty and forget to breath when I have to speak infront of people. Mr. Grey knows my difficulty with public speaking, believe me I expressed my feelings about this in his office one afternoon. The thing is Mr. Grey is this hot teacher who has a strong passion for words, poetry and plays. It's really cute when he gets all into the underlying meaning of things, it's like he's discovering some new cell that is going to change the world some day, yet it's with words. The thing is Mr. Grey has been at our school for about seven years now and I find it really cool that he still gets excited about the same material year after year. I sort of look up to him and his passion for what he does. You can really tell he enjoys teaching, he loves what he does and well I want that for me someday. Anyways Mr. Grey and I kind of get along in other things than just English. The fact that we listen to the same music and like the same color is fantastic. He notices when I change my hair and he can tell when I'm having a bad day. Many times I have ended up in his office crying about Denise or my home life. Anyways The other day Mr. Grey told me his wife is Pregnant which is awesome, but what's even better is that they are having a little girl and he is going to name her after me! Which is double the awesome, his wife is so nice and beautiful. She came into class one day to just hang out with him and she is as much into English as he is. It's sort of romantic that they go geek over words.
So like I was saying I have a fear of speaking in front of people and today I think I might just die or Faint. Either way it won't be good. So I am keeping my fingers crossed that I can get through the whole thing, If I don't mess up that is just an added bonus and the cherry on the top is if I get up there and own the damn speech. So wish me luck because the bell is about to ring and I have to go to English next! I shall update on how it went :)
Back to this whole speech thing, I am double nervous because I feel like Mr. Grey is going to pick me to go first for the girls. Which is going to be highly difficult since you know I get all sweaty and forget to breath when I have to speak infront of people. Mr. Grey knows my difficulty with public speaking, believe me I expressed my feelings about this in his office one afternoon. The thing is Mr. Grey is this hot teacher who has a strong passion for words, poetry and plays. It's really cute when he gets all into the underlying meaning of things, it's like he's discovering some new cell that is going to change the world some day, yet it's with words. The thing is Mr. Grey has been at our school for about seven years now and I find it really cool that he still gets excited about the same material year after year. I sort of look up to him and his passion for what he does. You can really tell he enjoys teaching, he loves what he does and well I want that for me someday. Anyways Mr. Grey and I kind of get along in other things than just English. The fact that we listen to the same music and like the same color is fantastic. He notices when I change my hair and he can tell when I'm having a bad day. Many times I have ended up in his office crying about Denise or my home life. Anyways The other day Mr. Grey told me his wife is Pregnant which is awesome, but what's even better is that they are having a little girl and he is going to name her after me! Which is double the awesome, his wife is so nice and beautiful. She came into class one day to just hang out with him and she is as much into English as he is. It's sort of romantic that they go geek over words.
So like I was saying I have a fear of speaking in front of people and today I think I might just die or Faint. Either way it won't be good. So I am keeping my fingers crossed that I can get through the whole thing, If I don't mess up that is just an added bonus and the cherry on the top is if I get up there and own the damn speech. So wish me luck because the bell is about to ring and I have to go to English next! I shall update on how it went :)
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Today
I am new to this whole blog thing here but I feel like I need one to just relieve all the unnecessary stress in my life. I didn't want to say my name so I made up a pseudo name so that if anyone should find it they won't know who I am. The reason why I named this blog One Way Conversations is because well I will write here all my thoughts or things I want to say and really its a one way conversation with myself. I mean if I get followers cool but this is here so that I can sift through my inner most thoughts. I will come up with names for everyone in my life because well I don't want to use real names and I believe that they wouldn't want their real names out there either. Anyways I hope to update this more often and maybe people will come along for the ride if I am lucky :)
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