Holy Hell Guys

I am so so sorry for leaving you like this for such a very long time :(

Lets get into things |Cracks all knuckles and assumes the typing position| Takes a long Inhalation of this tabacco stick otherwise known as the cancer stick..

Okay so I no longer hang out with the same group of kids on a regular anymore well except for Cassie and Ro. I talk to Meghan in class and Peter at lunch but I don't really hang out with them. See they are so in love they do stuff on their own, every once in a blue they'll call us up to hang out but usually they keep to themselves. As for Kyle well we don't really talk at all anymore which is perfectly fine by me. I think he judges me a little with who I've become over the past few weeks.

Anyways rememeber Jacob the guy who goes to University in New York? Well he comes around a lot, Ro has been hanging out with him a ton more which means so have I. I know Jacob likes me, its pretty obvious when he's around me and Ro doesn't like it at all.

Ro and I are still on the whole friends stage, which I like way better than trying to be his girlfriend but he still gets jealous. When we go out to parties and guys hit on me I can feel him watching me like a hawk. Sometimes when he gets really drunk he tries to barge in our conversations but I don't let him intimidate anyone I'm talking to I just play it cool.

In ten days is my birthday and I am super excited because that means I am one year closer to getting my drivers license. I already talked to my parents and this summer I am going to get my permit and once school starts up again I will take driver's ed. It's after school which sucks major monkey balls but hey I want to drive so I have to do what I have to. For right now I'm content with Ro driving me around places but sometimes its gets a little tiring having to deal with him, especially since I know how he feels about me and well if I want to go some party to get my groove on I feel like I can't. Anyways it doesn't matter it's not like I lost my virginity just yet maybe 15 will be the year I lose it but then I think about it and to me that just seems slutty. I guess it will happen when it happens until then I am content with a little heavy petting :)

Alright I have got to go guys the bell is ringing! Toodles